Reflecting and fire

I used to be ignorantly lifeless,
Flitting fakely happy through time, 
A dull mind and a dead heart,
Hidden behind a frantic body,
And a beaming smile,
Dullness buried deep in joyous lies,
Even I couldn't dig up the truth,
Dispite boudless energy.
But then, I wouldn't have cared.

Then slowly awereness grew,
I started to listen to myself,
Or was it others taughting that changed my mind?
And a candle started to burn,
But it scared me,
It shone on truth and scorched my mind,
So eyes squeezed shut,
As a faint endeavour to trap out the light,
And so I blew it out.

And I turned against myself,
Learnt to lock away my mind,
Choking on life,
Using all my energy to keep out that flame,
The light screaming to be free of darkness,
But persistent body kept it dark,
And kept the ignorant smile,
Lust clawing my skin from inside,
Ignored.

But energy was lost,
And I was tireing of trapping emotions,
And I began to unlock my mind,
And realise how I felt,
And so the candle was alowed to glimmer,
Still only a small hope,
And those words poured out onto the page,
Of anger and pain and love and lies,
It provided some release,
The first poem.

And the flame grew stronger,
With every hug,
And every smile,
Then your lips found mine, 
And in a blissful passion the candle went up in flames,
Filling my heart,
Finally happyness found,
Only then did I realise the darkness before.

And Over the next month my love grew,
And my passion, and lust, 
And the flame not only engulfed my heart,
But burnt in my mind,
My brain,
My stomach 
And my lungs.
Love taking over my body,
Untill it reached the surface of my skin.

And now I'm on fire,
Every inch of my alight with love,
Burning with pashion,
And I am deeply and uncontrolably happy,
I have reached emotions my heart didn't know it could feel,
Thought happy thoughts my brain doubted it could ever think,
Felt butterflies my stomach didn't know it was capable of making.
Breathed air, my lungs never know I'd be so happy to breathe.

 I used to be ignorantly lifeless,
Flitting fakely happy through time, 
A dull mind and a dead heart,
Hidden behind a frantic body,
And a beaming smile,
Dullness buried deep in joyous lies,
Even I couldn't dig up the truth,
Dispite boudless energy.
But then, I wouldn't have cared.
I didn't know love.

wows this poem is so amazing! and its reaaaaaaaaally really adorable! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx